-kso today just HASENT been my day justsaying... first, i wakeup feeling like crapppp, and sick as fuuuuck... have been for about 2months now, somethings ALWAYS going wrong.. im eithor dealing w my hip, throwing up, ect.. and yet they tell me NOTHING is wrong? waatever -.- i shouldnt feel the way i feel ALL the time, fainting for NO reason normal? mk w/e.... seecond.. i wakeup to reading a list of THINGS my mom wants me & nathan to do ... fine? whatever nbd, i did everything... YET nathan wakes up and goes on the computer & DOESNT do anything thats on the list until me & jeeff are gone... wonderful eh?third... my aunt & mom and cousin want me & jeff to take THERE two boy cat's and bring them somewhere.. okaaaay nbd i cryed; we raised cuckeyed and angel the two cat's i cryed & yet everyone bitchs NBD.. whatever, of course im gunnah cry im not gunnah wanna see them go... forth, we go shoppping & fucking my mom's yelling at me cause i ask for food and people are hitting me & stepping on my foot , which YES pissed me off completely... Fifth, the big one :@ we come home, we come home and nathans bitching cus mom forgot to get smoke's then he cant find his bankcard or some shit ... and he takes it out on me & my mom and yelling and shit, i get pissed off & whatever.. like? yes i understnad you lost your bank card/credit card? BUT dont fucking yell & scream and shit WHEN you know that i have anixety ANYONE with anixiety would cry , and get upset and YELL right back ... but than mom comes in MY room after coming up stairs & says "its all your fault & you cause most of this" LOL whatever. im not even gunnah get into it.. i leave with jeff, we go over to my aunts to calm down & whatnoooot, we come back & i try telling my mom that shes not around, and that we should sit down and talk and that i DONT cry over nothing... -.- but YET she still thinks that i cry two much but YET .. > i have been throuhg hell and back but i cant cry & i need to get over it.. yes i love my mom more then anything, and yes every mother & daughter have there days but MOM you need to realize that i CANT help ti and anyone with depression & anixiety/bipolar can tell you that YOU cry over nothing.. and yes i bet it gets annoying i understand, but ? if i could make it stop i would.. i HATE It ... the ONLY thing that ever came outta this day was hanging out with my babie, YES he didnt need to see what happen or what went on today, it's wrong he shouldnt have to see that but i do understand if wwere gunnah be together for awhile, then hes gunnah see way more... but finally glad this day is DONE & OVERwiiith.
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